Twinkle Journey and March happenings

 Hello! March has gone by in a flash, I barely realized it was going and now it is going to end! I had a long week workinga at a camp, but now that I have been back at home, I feel much more rested and happy. I have been super busy with work and with personal matters, so taking a break and having some fun dressing up was really welcome and I am glad I did it. 

So I wore Twinkle Journey! I have talked about this dress already, but it is the older version of Twinkle Journey, the puff sleeved op cut, but unfortunately the elastic in the sleeves has given up and so my sleeves don't puff up anymore. Still, it is a beautiful dress and I plan on taking this dress to a seamstress and asking if they can replace all the elastics, so that this dress can shine another ten years forward at least! 

I really went for the simplest coord idea I had, my dress and headbow are both Twinkle Journey from Metamorphose (yes, I got the headbow secondhand also). My socks are from Lady Sloth, my necklace from Puvithel (who doesn't own anything from Crystal Heart series yet?) and my petticoat is my first one, CottonCandy petticoat from melikestea in voile and four layers.

 Twinkle Journey was my first dress from Metamorphose and it really sealed my fate as a Meta lolita. I love Metamorphoses prints and I even had one of their blouses (I recently sold it), and I really appreciate their sizing options, as for me, their plus plus size is the most comfortable. My chest is over 125 cm and the plus size waist gives me problems when I try to wear my Wizard dress from Meta. But recently I have been focusing on saving up and paying debts, so I have not bought any new dresses in almost five months I believe. 

 I've been getting more comfortable in front of the camera and my lovely partner has improved their photography skills also. So I really like these pictures. I actually don't remember if I have ever written about that I used to hate getting my photo taken and I really disliked smiling at the camera. Its cause I have always been the ugly duckling, or at least, thats how it has felt to me. I have never quite considered myself to be pretty or beautiful or good looking. Growing up both fat and poor, I never had the opportunity to really experiment with clothes and style. Now that I am an adult, I am little less poor and little more fat, but I have freedom to try things with my style. Of course, I would like to own more clothes and go to the salon more often, but I can experiment. My mother was quite controlling of my appearance growing up, but now she has realized that I am my own person with my own style and it is a good thing. So when I discovered lolita fashion, I was so enthralled by the consept of dressing solely for yourself, solely in what you consider being beautiful. And I gotta say, I have been liking myself a whole lot more recently. I feel so happy when I see myself in lolita dress, I feel a strange sense of pride and acceptance and genuine happiness in how I look. 

Well, that took a turn for the deep end there. But sometimes its good to write up things that are hard to say out loud. I know that this blog is more of a diary to me, since not many people have looked at it, but somehow, the thought of people reading this does not scare me. I hope that if you read this and relate even a little, keep doing and dressing in what makes you happy. Lolita fashion is so different and wonderful, that if someone does not understand it, maybe they don't need to understand. It is enough that it makes you happy. 

Okay, I need to go to make a cup of tea after this and please excuse me for the possible grammar mistakes, english is hard today. 

See you next time, 

-Laventeli